I lost you what seems like a forever ago,
I found myself never. Always been afloat.

But there is a difference in me after and before,
you cursed me with distance and this cold war.

I need nothing from you to make me whole,
Something is wrong with me at my core.

Clearly not your job to fix,
But that doesn't change how I miss,

Being in your everyday,
Listening to what you've to say.

About my do's and don'ts,
About your wants and won’ts.

To help return to a sense of belonging,
Away from this heartache and longing.

But you live to please no one; I understand,
But this ban I can't withstand.

It makes me a criminal serving a sentence,
Wrongly accused and yet causing repentance.

Just tell me straight that you don't want to talk to me,
Cause my love wasn't whole hearted; inadequate and not upto your degree.

………
Here I go at another attempt,
To overwhelm and trigger a response for me sent.

Because it's the only thing that doesn’t get ignored,
I should've left when my photos you ignored.
………

The last time we spoke made me feel like there's nothing there,
In your spaces for me to share.

I've been feeling like I've been cut off,
Like it was your intent but your will not of.

It's confusing because you say you want time,
Then you scam me and say I should find a life.

Keeping your silence as it drives me crazy,
And asking me if my threat is really real really.

With my life I'm not sure what to do,
But all I know was I did enjoy my life in two.

I ask of you is to talk to me,
Definitely isn't to my depression a key.

But don't just leave me to the breeze.
Please.
……..
I don't have any source of power,
I don't even feel like eating forget devour.

You were my greatest source to be it simply put,
I'm sorry I disrespected and broke our relationships foot.

I'm sorry I've not learnt to stand and still am crawling,
Do I to you look ugly? Is that why your stalling?